if you dont understand...If you dont understand what im about; if you dont understand who I am; if you dont understand why Im the way I am
.Wrap your mind around this.If you dont understand why I dance, you need to watch me dance again. Look closer. Look at my eyes. Can you see right through me? Like im made of glass? You see my heart, you see my veins? You hear that music? Thats me your hearing. The rhythm my blood, and the beat my heart. Without this I can never be. If you dont understand run it back again.If you dont understand why I laugh, you need to listen to me again. Listen closer. Listen to my voice. can you see right through me? Like im made of sky? My lungs my brain, Filled with air and thoughts of joy. Look at the sky, youll find me there. Look in the ocean, youll find me there. Look in the center of the earth, youll find me there too. I laugh at myself, I laugh at everything
I Am FlawedFrom body to soul and in between,They blotch the parchment that is me;I know of worse flaws I have seen,But surelyI am flawed.I sometimes lose my temper,Use my mouth before my mind;I ponder things I could do better,And regret them for a time.I can be harsh, I can be blunt,I tend to hide my thoughts;But this is far from what I want:To be in someone's heart.Comparisons are hard to makeSince we are all unique.But half the time my words are fake;The real me is a freak.Regardless,These flaws define me, describe me—They make me what I am.In that light, I'm proud to say thatIamflawed.
MessEverywhere I goEvery single placeThe troubles seem to growEvery smiling faceEventually frowns with woeWhy can't I doAnything rightI just screwUp everything despiteThe happiness I try to spewIs it meAm I the source of this acheDoes the pain flow freeIs this what I makePeople be?Should I go away and hideNever to see othersOr the outsideBut would I stop another'sPain and be the only one that ever criedWhat is a life with no greyWhen everyone is sadI'd give it all awayIt wouldn't be that badI would finally be able to sayI saved a life
What We HadWhat We HadI think it was the lack of connection.The lack of... touch?I didn't mean for it to happen.My desire for love was too much.He was right there,In my peripheral vision.The party was intense.Nothing but flashing white lightsFilling the room.He walked up to me,Wanting to dance and I saidYes.I was with someone.It's not like it was aRelationship.We only ever kissed and saidSweet things.A whole year of justKissing.AndTalking.Maybe he didn't love meLike I loved him.Maybe he was straight.Maybe he didn't think of menLike thatAnymore.I still loved him.I didn't want to let him go.But I desired something.I desired something more thanLove.I wanted to touch.Wanted to be touched.I wanted to feel another's skin on mine.I was feeling too much desire to careWhoTouchedMe.I woke up that morning next to aStranger.I never knew his name.I never asked for it.Because I didn'tCare.I just got up andLeft.Days after that night,I sawHim.I
The tenderness that's herWith every word written, with every word spokenI try my best to express myself, without it being brokenFor what I feel is deep in my heart, is love that I want to be showingEvery day it develops, every day I feel more lovingIs the tenderness of passion, which I’ve never felt beforeA feeling that I got from a girl who I truly adoreBeautiful as a rose and gentle as a peaceful doveMy heart gets filled with warmth, a feeling I describe as loveShe’s the most beautiful girl I’ve seen, that’s as simple as I can beSo very cute and filled with joy, she’s the only girl who I want to seeHer adorable smile that always cheers me up, she’s the only one I needShe’s everything I ever wanted, I thank god that he gave her to me
Love LetterYou are re-creating the word love for meI have never felt anything in my heart so deepI'm so in love that I'll never be the sameI just want to be with you every single dayYou have touched my heart in many different waysAnd now from my heart you'll never go awayI feel so warm every time you're here,I feel so cold whenever you disappearThough it feels like you are already mineWho knows if that's real, who know if it's a lie?I just think about you every single timeEvery time I write, and when I close my eyesBut I'm just waiting for that special dayFor when you finally say, yes
Wake up loveHush now,I'm sorry the dream must end.It's time to wake upand face the world.Reality is harsh,the people are cold,that's how it isand you must wake up.For you have been asleep long enough.Time to wake love,and be with your peoplethey wait for youand have never given up.You can't let them down.The alarm's going off,and reality is waiting.You are only humanand cannot do muchbut everyone is importantand life is waiting just for you.Can you hear their cries?And the bellows of pain?You can stop thembut only if you wake up.It's time to wake up love,and face the world.They cry for your returnand you can't let them down.
admittance is defeatthey called you beautifulwith porcelain eyes about to crackand cigarette skin crumblingaway, a knotted spine andjagged smile:you were never gracious.you're slipping underneath, thisvirulent smog masks a paper sky thatnever allowed a dream andyou're afraid because it's soaking inyour pores again, unattainable and unoriginal;the meaning of life never meant enough-you were never hopeful.there's a getaway map on the undersideof your pillow, and a lifetime of secretson the underside of your bonesyou're a walking travesty:your chest ticks, dullyour wrist beats, dyingtime is keeping you butyou were never patient.you lie large enough to make us believe youdon't entertain nightmares, but what ifno one could hear you scream?remarkable, it seemscaged birds really know howto sing out(you were always beautiful)
rivern: love isME AND SHAWN HAD BEEN friends since the first day of high school. It wasn't because we had a lot in common, but because we were different from everyone else. Even with the conformist school uniform we managed to stand out. It was as though we were standing in the shadows, while everyone else was in harsh sunlight. The other kids thought we were weird, freaks. Every day we would endure kids poking fun at the way we looked. People would trip us in the corridors and kick us when we were down. Kids would shout "emo!" or "cutter!" down the corridors after us too. And it didn't get any better either as we grew up, when most of the other bullying had stopped. In fact, for me and Shawn, it probably got worse. Not everyone hated us though. There were the odd few who talked to us every now and then. So by the time we got to Year 11 and were studying for our GCSEs, we had a small group of friends. The worst lesson had to be E
It Feels Like PainJealousy...Watch while it destroys me.As it wraps its hands around my throat,my eyes are pleading...just...just choke.So thrilled for you,you and your happy ending.Even if it means I lost my company,and now I'm stuck here alone.Alone in my misery.But I wont dwell,and I like to pretend I'm well.So I grab my guitar and head to the ocean.I'll stand in the sand,and write you a love-song.I'll sing it loudas the waves crash over me.Saltwater disguises the crying.And I can make you believe,that I am not heartbroken.Not that it matters.After-all,in the end it's just pain.
:Forbidden- Ch 7:ForbiddenChapter 7---------------Stopping a block away from my house, Talen put the car in park and stared out the windshield. I turned in the passenger's seat to stare at him one last time, his hazel eyes shifting to me as I smiled a bit."I don't want this night to end," I whispered, staring at my hands in my lap."Me neither," The black-haired man whispered, caressing my face in his hands. "But
I had a really good time. I'm glad you like me back."Talen leaned forward and let his fingers sift through my hair as his lips gently brushed mine, bringing me into a tender kiss. I closed my eyes and brought my hand up, tracing Talen's prominent jaw bone with my fingers as he moved closer, putting more pressure on our lips. He pulled away slowly, grinning slyly."W- What's with that face?" I stuttered, furrowing my eyebrows."Where did you learn to kiss like that?" He asked, leaning back and making my face burn with unease. "It seems like you've had practice before.""I- I d
:Forbidden- Ch 9:ForbiddenChapter 9---------------"What's going on?" AJ asked, an eyebrow rising in confusion. "Why are we going to Cain's? I thought you and Talen""I want to get him back," I interrupted, putting my hands to my temples and rubbing slowly. "I realized how much he meant to me when I left him.""What were you doing for the past two weeks that kept you from calling or texting me? You could have at least told me you were okay!""Nothing," I laughed dryly and stared at my hands. "Literally.""You don't know how worried I was. I'm serious."I glanced over at AJ, his blue hair was disheveled and dark bags were under his eyes, making him look older than he really was by a few years. He looked like he hadn't slept in days."Why would you worry?""Because you're my best friend. I care about you, man."I turned my head away, my eyes lowering and my cheeks turning a light shade of pink."W- Well," I stuttered. "You shouldn't.""Yes. I definitely should," He laughed a bit, raising a
:Forbidden- Ch 3:ForbiddenChapter 3---------------"I'm going on my jog!"I zipped up my sweatshirt, as I thumped down the stairs, coming face to face with my mom at the last step. Her arms were crossed and her eyes were fixed on me with a stern glare."You're not going to meet up with that emo kid again are you?"I exhaled with aggravation as I recalled the occurrence that happened a few nights ago. I had lied to my mom about who I went out with and got home late, causing my parent's suspicions to rise and their trust to diminish like leaves in the wind. It was difficult now to even take a step onto the front porch without them sticking their noses into my business. It was more annoying than anything."You know I go for a jog every Sunday morning," I sighed, pinching the bridge of my nose. "Nothing about that has changed. I jog to the city, visit the music store, and jog home."She stood there for a minute, her hand to her chin, as if contemplating on whether she should let me go or not."Fin
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